My life I'd lived for Christ I thought
feeling confidence to Him I brought
but He couldn't use me for only a form I'd brushed
I was still me - I hadn't been crushed

For you see even in close relationship with Him on the throne
I still had fear of losing what in this life I'd gained
so my trust in myself and my abilities alone
was what I'd fall back on - it's how I'd trained

But then I went into the machine of crushing
and was kept until tears on the altar were gushing
only now - when I'm totally dependent on Him
could I be lead and used, from my eyes came the film

I now could see the way He was leading
I no longer my own way was pleading
the Word says seek ye first the kingdom of God
enter as servant into His victory squad

On Him totally and completely depend
you'll stand when the trials the enemy sends
for His service demands cast away robes of doubt
and to Him be Absolutely Sold Out